It fucks with me. But in a cool way. I mean, if we aren't changing, we aren't growing. It could literally be the death of some people... career, family, life... just a walking fuckin zombie. But its hard to make changes....sometimes small, sometimes huge.
I had to leave some good friends, and a bitchin state behind in California, to come back to Minnesota. My roots. My "home." But it doesn't feel like home. It feels like a place I used to live.
And now I show up every day to cube hell... because this is fuckin livin right!?
But I can't sit un-changed for long. I remember when I moved from Texas to Minnesota, I was listening to a shitload of the Sandman...dammit i miss that dude. He changed music for me, it became something REAL. It became something that could make me spontaneously burst into tears...sadness? joy? No fuckin idea, its inexplainable... and as we continue to change, its hard not to have a few things that are familiar...to keep us centered...
So I wandered around my home town...
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there was a warm familiarity
yet I continue to fight cube hell - and chase down a dream. I'm pretty sure I'll catch it too...
so we got to work
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I learned how to do some shit in California... really really cool shit
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but Laverne sat quietly on the rod holder in the garage, carefully lookin over my process
So i took her for a drive
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we found some water
So we rigged up
we spent a lot of time talking about cooler shit than cubes and emails and conference rooms
and we talked about how to make change
and every once in a while, we'd look at some water, and slap a fly into it, hoping something would eat it, but we didn't try too hard
it was as clear , and as beautiful as I'd remembered it
and nothing ate our flies... so we just kept on walking and talking
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and I did one of the things I know how to do the best...