quite a few people have stopped by today. most with flowers for elizabeth.
one fella brought some stuffed dogs. we cried every time.
at half four this afternoon I met with what seemed to be the entire council of the shire at the park.
they expressed their regret and asked elizabeth where she would like a small plaque placed. she chose the obstacle course. he could do all of the course bar the one where the dog runs weaving between the poles... he could never get his head around that, the big doofus.
I laminated a photo and zip tied it to the fence. I also left his baby.
I managed to keep it together until the end. there wasn't much to say so we were there for all of twenty minutes.
elizabeth cried from the start. part of me questions taking her back there today but I feel it was helpful.
the birthday girl doesn't really understand. and of course she wasn't there to witness the tragedy.
she has asked if we could get a cat. I said no.
I saw the water corp working around the drain down from us. leaving my two girls with the councillors I went and had a quick chat.
they had remote control cameras running the pipe length of the park. he was not found in that stretch but they informed me that it branches to the left into the road drainage. they are working into the night. I'll have a drive down in a minute.
I'm not very hopeful he will be found. but if he is I will have him cremated.
after our meeting/memorial I dropped the girls at home and went here...
this is where I used to walk him. I did the circuit solo and had to have a few breaks. I also had to stop at the truck.
I'm thankful no one passing me by asked what was wrong. I've wept so much I've given myself a backache along with a headache.
it comes and it goes. every time I think it's the last it isn't.
I thought today would be better. it wasn't.
I thought I was harder than this. I'm not.
my missus found his papers tonight and I have enquired with the breeders about getting another lab. a black one. named benson.
all in good time, mind.
I'm not in any great rush. and even if I was I don't exactly have the readies at this very minute.
he was so lovely and gentle.
I honestly couldn't have treated him any better. he'd been everywhere with me.
but he liked the park the best.
I'd like to thank you all for your support through here and the private messages.
it has been an enormous help.
we'll always have buffalo, sweet josh.